Phobia

It's been so long!!!

I've always enjoyed `putting pen to paper' . So it is kind of weird why I let it go for so long.

Sometimes the thoughts that flow like a raging river in my mind does not allow me to calmly and sanely express myself.

When I feel like I am obliged to do anything, I shy away or rather go across the grain...becoming unexpected and unpredictable, out of choice rather than being forced into any uncomfortable position. Sometimes hating myself in the process because I yearn for the human touch at the same time.

Am I making sense with all this gibberish talk, or does anyone think that coming of age at 49 is just way too late?

Questions, questions and more questions...will we ever find answers to our questions?

Boleh percaya ke?

I took this quiz and this is what I got:

What's your Native American Indian name? - Strong Heart

Result: Strong Heart

You have been through many storms which made you very compassionate and wise. You love to take care of others, family and friends come first.


Hmmm...Strong Heart gets tired too...

Am I?

I try to write but the right words keep evading me.

Why is it that when there is like a lump in your throat, no matter how hard you try to swallow, even peristalsis won't carry it down? And why does lumps in your throat defy gravity? Why does it stay put and choke? Cos' I really need to move on...

Some things , some events stay with you your whole lifelong I guess.

Am I just being cynical, cos I'm still alive and GOD willing, have some more good productive years ahead, how am I to know this statement for a fact?

I'm not dead yet, am I?