Thursday, August 27, 2009

The original unsung hero(ine)

It was school holidays again! And mak was planning for us to take a train trip to visit my aunties and uncle in KL. For many nights after hearing the news, I had been having sleepless nights, taut with anticipation of the adventure to come. Maklum lah orang kampong nak pi KL, syoknya tak terkira, walaupun itu bukanlah kali pertama

The day finally arrived. Our group consisted of Tok Abah (my dear departed, al Fatihah), mak, and her motley crew made up of my brother Man, my sister Ja, my (then) youngest sister Ida and yours truly. Ida must have been about 3 ½- 4 years old then. ( Remember this, as it is an essential part of this story) She was such a baby and was my parents’ favorite.
Maklum lah, budak tu suka menyanyi, tak lah sedap sangat, tapi teramat lah suka mendendangkan lagu bila duduk kat celah mak bapak I kat dalam kereta Datsun 1200 bearing no plate KC1789 tu. Lagipun tak silap I, kereta tu tak der radio, so bila kami naik kereta je, my father would make a gesture as if he’s turning a knob on my sister’s mouth kinda like he’s switching on the radio, and apa lagi! she unashamedly would count that as an invitation to start her dendang sessions.

I have to tell about our luggage! My parents bought it specially for the trip, I think. It was box shaped, about 2 ft by 5 ft (I swear, it was enormous!) and blue in colour with small black specks. My father had written our address very nicely on the luggage `59 Jalan Pajar, Alor Setar, Kedah’. (My father has one of the nicest handwriting I have ever come across, even to this day)(Later, the same bag carried my belongings when I enrolled in a boarding school on top of a small hill in Seremban)

All our clothes were packed tightly into that one luggage as Mak had to carry it single handed, with me, being the eldest at only 10 and not much good for anything, and Tok Abah, even then, was too old. Tok Abah was a lovable grandfather who loved to be on the go somewhere, yet the minute he reached the place, he would be missing home; and I suspect, Mak Tok, though he never said it.

The journey to KL was long. And there were no air conditioned coaches then (if I am not wrong, but even if they had, we could not have afforded it). Sitting by the window with the wind blowing in your face seemed and sounded romantic, but wait until you try it, you will know that your face will end up blackened from the soot produced by the engine.

If you want to reach KL from Alor Setar those days, you had to board the train from Alor Setar bright and early and make a quick change to another train at Bukit Mertajam. In my mind, as a kid,I pictured it as if the railway lines were built starting from both ends and somehow the engineers only found out they missed each other at Bukit Mertajam!

(Does it look like railway tracks or a ladder in a snake and ladder gone wrong?)

This is how Alor Setar looks now and very much how it looked then. 4 decades on and not much addition to the sleepy not so hollow, but I love my town. Did you all know Alor Setar as a city is older than Washington D.C? Yes it is, no kidding! This year it is 274 years old, whereas Washington D.C is only 218 if I am not mistaken.

(View from the top of Menara Telekom, the world's 19th tallest telecom tower...hmmm not bad eh? for a sleepy not so hollow)


(The façade of the station~ how quaint it still is)


(Tracks that carry me down memory lane)

The journey went by quite uneventfully, The highlight of a train ride then was when the train made its way across Tasik Merah, Taiping, Chugging along at low speed right across the lake was really something! And the scenery, SubhanAllah, I could swear there was no other place that looked as beautiful especially if you were to make the journey at dusk.

There were no express train service then, so we passed each little train station /stops, sometimes seemingly right in the middle of nowhere.


Ipoh train station was and is a magnificent piece of architecture, It being the biggest train station north of peninsular, the train normally makes a longer stopover there. There we would have got some refreshments ; kopi O panas in small plastic bags or boiled groundnuts (from Menglembu, doubtlessly) and maybe nasi lemak bungkus. The clanging of the train master’s bells, the cries of the peddlers advertising their wares, the sights, sounds and smell of the station still lives on in my mind.

(Ipoh station-locals call it the Taj Mahal)


Mak woke us up when we reached Rawang, to gather all our belongings as the next stop would be our destination, the (old) KL train station. Ah! What can I say about KL train station that has not already been said or written?



(According to some travelogs, it was built by the British, but the architecture is distinctly Moorish and it is just beautiful)


At the station we were welcomed by my aunts and the children, Norli and Zamri,. Although cousins by birth, the distance apart and the infrequent meetings made for a bashful encounter at first. My aunts, Mak Kakak (Mak’s eldest sister by the same mother, dearly departed, al Fatihah) and Chu Zaiton, (Mak’s adopted sister and cousin) tried to push us kids together, but kids being kids, we got closer on our own accord, after days spent together exploring the grounds of the Army Camp at Padang Tembak, close to Gurney and Keramat. (Ami Noordin, my uncle was an army captain stationed there)

The school holidays passed by with us trudging the grounds and climbing and tumbling the undulating terrain of the camp grounds. Mak Kakak was a fantastic cook, whipping up delicious dishes and cookies. Of course she had to dispense the cookies herself and surreptitiously kept the jar out of sight for fear of everything running out faster than the holidays!

We were joined by another uncle’s children during the days. (Mamu Osman is mak’s elder brother . He was a taxi driver and lived close by in Kg Baru. Nimi, Niza,and Ta were frequent features in Mak Kakak's house.

One very distinct memory was us throwing small pebbles on top of the corrugated zinc roof of the squatter houses built down the slopes. What a pain we must have been, cos there were so many of us, and even if each were to throw one small pebble, imagine the ruckus we made! Every time the people came out scolding we would run away hiding. Then the same would be repeated over and over again, tirelessly,. We had such fun making them angry! The recklessness of youth!

ALL good things must come to an end. It was time for us to make the journey home. School was starting in a couple of days time and we had to make trip back as planned.

No more feeling bashful, tears streamed down at parting time with promises to meet again during Hari Raya. And the journey home went by much as it did when we were traveling to KL, except we were traveling in the opposite direction.

When we reached Nibong Tebal, Mak asked us to gather our things to ensure nothing was left behind. So we busily helped with whatever were stowed in the overhead racks. Just as the train jolted forward, Mak asked, `Ida pi mana?’ Frantically we looked around and she, the little songstress was nowhere on the train!

The train started pushing forward….and she was still missing!

I heard from somewhere down there on the platform, some Apek was crying, `Woi, anak sapa ni!, anak sapa ni!?’ I heard that voice over and over again, GOD bless him. Looking out the window of the now moving train, albeit slowly moving, there she was, in her very short dress, and a hat if I am not mistaken, completely innocent and waving at the train, smiling.

I rushed to the doorway of the coach we were in, and without thinking jumped off the train and in a single swift motion swept her into my arms and jumped back onto the train which was gathering speed!. Luckily I had the practise as a hurdler in school. It must have have taken only 40-50 seconds but it seemed a lifetime in slow motion in my mind.

Mak was unspeakably relieved to have the little songstress safely in her arms. Everybody was speechless at what both she and I did. And thankful, no doubt!

When we reached home, the drama on the platform was the conversation topic for many days, months and recollected faithfully over years to come. Everybody was so busy talking and narrating, but nobody thought of nominating me for the Hang Tuah award. Kalau tak glemer lah aku! Boleh masuk surat kabar.

Well my dear sister, if you are reading this, then we both know who you should idlolise as your lifetime hero(ine). You see, if not for me, you might be staying with some Apek for the rest of your life in Nibong Tebal and singing Long Fan, Long Lau.... instead of Cibidi, bidi, cibidi bang, bang, cibidi bang, bang, cibidi bong bong…nyet,nyet,nyet...

YOU OWE ME BIG TIME SISTA!

Saya bukan Ah Long

Saya memang along, saya bukan Ah Long dan saya cuma nak tolong!

Can't resist putting this one...he's so cute, just watch.

KAMI BUKAN AH LONG KAMI CUMA NAK TOLONG


Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Theory of Relativity in relation to Time

Einstein's famous equation

E = mc2

which showed that the observed independence of the speed of light on the observer's state of motion required fundamental changes to the notion of simultaneity. Consequences of this include the time-space frame of a moving body slowing down and contracting (in the direction of motion) relative to the frame of the observer.
(Sourced from Wiki~ what can I say...I'm gulity of overdependence on wiki)
[Gosh! How did I survive Physics classes?]


Einstein may have been the genius, but Henry van Dyke captured the essence of the concept in these few lines:


Time is too slow for those who wait,

too swift for those who fear,

too long for those who grieve,

too short for those who rejoice,

but for those who love,time is eternity




(So girls, be careful who you love, an eternity is a very long time to be in love with a jerk)



Ayang, you asked me a question on time recently, and I told you I will give my answer in a post, so here it is:



Masa muda sebelum tua

Masa sehat sebelum sakit

Masa senang sebelum miskin

Masa lapang sebelum sempit

Masa hidup sebelum mati



(PS: Ayang, he doesn't know what he's missing!)

Snappy daffodil/ dr jeckyll's ms hyde

Daffodils...that's what my first take of the test revealed about me, myself, moi.

Me, the Daffodil






You have a sunny disposition and are normally one of the first to show up for the party. You don't need too much attention from the host once you get there as you are more than capable of making yourself seen and heard



I took the test again after cik ja said she took it and she's a snapdragon. Wow! sure sounds scary eh, a snapdragon!

Guess what? This time I am a snapdragon~ did I lie then or did I just lie?

Me, Cik Ja, the Snapdragons



"Mischief is your middle name, but your first is friend. You are quite the prankster that loves to make other people laugh."



Well cik ja,I can now safely conclude that you are not adopted and that we are truly sisters.

In all my gardening years, I've never had a snapdragon that had a daffodil as a sister or vice versa.
And so I've decided, we must be snappy daffodils or I am Dr Jeckyll, and YOU MUST BE MS HYDE!

Memories of Ramadhan past, hopes for Ramadhan to come

I've been under the weather of late. I have been wanting to log in an entry since the eve of Ramadhan but the alternate hot and rainy days played havoc on my system. The long subdued asthma started to act up and it took a few days of consistent medicating to get it under control.

It is the third day of fasting and today it happened! Tidor lambat sebab nak tengok `The Astronaut's Wife' menyebabkan sahur pun terbabas! Nasib baik petang tadi, we managed to get free bubur lambuk from the mesjid...so that became our sahur. I better make sure this entry is finished soon, cos if I'm late again for sahur, I don't think big boss is going to be so kind as this morning. `tak pa lah...kita makan apa yang ada lah...he said when I woke him up at 5.30 this morning.

Ramadhan is a blessed month. For as long as I can recall the days were for fasting and during the nights, my father would Imam the 20 rakaat Tarawikh and 3 rakaat Witir. As a kid, I used to feel intimidated by the sheer thought of performing 23 rakaats of prayers. Later on in life, living away from home for much of my young adult life, I opted to continue with the ibadah. I came to value and appreciate the strength and will to push myself to the limit. Nothing equals the feeling of celebrating Raya when you have sincerely performed your fast every day and topped it with Tarawikh and Witir every night. Lately my mission has also been to khatam the Al Quran at least once during Ramadhan and round it up with the 6 days of fast in Syawal. InsyaAllah, I hope this year I will be blessed to carry it through.

Ayang used to tag along when I perform my Tarawikh at the nearby madrasah. As a young kid of 3 or 4, she would not miss it for the world, struggling to keep pace with me as we take the short walk every night as soon as the Mu`azzin calls for Isya' prayers. I would bring along a small pillow, her favorite story or coloring book and a bottle of milk. There, while we prayed, she would roll and suckled on her bottle of milk. Most nights she would be fast asleep by the time we were at 8 or 10 rakaats. I so wanted her to experience the whole works.

Years later, when her cousins were old enough to join us, they did. By then, everybody would put on their telekung and performed at least 8 rakaat. It was so exciting for them, to feel part of the crowd, to feel they are big enough to join the adults.

Ayang was back home for her mid semester break recently. She told me that she was not feeling well and that she'd skipped the Tarawikh that night. It was to be the first Tarawikh of the year.

Yet there she was. As she sat beside me while we waited for the Imam to start the prayers, my heart welled up with pride and doa that this young adult beside me understands and appreciate what I have tried to instill in her all those nights a long time ago, that she will continue with it long after I am gone and that she will do the same for her children, insyaAllah.

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Gentle, melting eyes

Kak Nab and Che Mat Yahya our neighbors down the road held a wedding reception for their firstborn Aizad and new DIL Laila. It was held at Regency Alor Setar.

As far as wedding goes, this was a wedding with a difference... The wedding emcee sang along with the songs being played over the air! He practically committed murder!

Seems that the songs were selected by the groom himself, but I suspect the groom's mother had a lot to do with it...well wouldn't you agree since the groom is only 27 but the songs played were by Bee Gees, The Platters, Morris Albert and the likes. But the songs set the mood very nicely..it was after all, a wedding reception.

The groom seemed a painfully shy young man but who was determined to give his bride something to remember of their wedding, so when the emcee announced that they wanted the newly weds to take their first dance as a married couple, he pulled his wife tight, looked into her eyes, and whispered 'I Love you' and danced oblivious to all watching them. The song was Only You.

I whispered to my daughter sitting beside me...he loves her more than she him. It was obvious in the way he held her and in his gentle, melting eyes.

Lucky bride...I thought to myself. Good for her if my observation was right, cos the road ahead is narrow and long, and a woman needs a loving man by her side, always. Something all long married women would agree..hmmm?

Good luck to the new married couple, and don't let the pressure of your jobs get in the way of your love for each other. (Both are air traffic controllers with DCA and stationed in Kuching. Oh boy! talk about highly stressful jobs!) Maintain your sense of humour always as sometimes that is the only thing that keeps your heart from breaking.




Thanks to K Nab who rekindled my friendship with her younger sister Leha. We were the best of buddies, partners in crime in standard 6 and only her asthma kept us apart when it stopped her from joining me in TKC.

PS Bruce, mommy will get you a top hat and glasses just like that pic when you marry...

Saturday, August 15, 2009

WORDS

Recently something happened which got me wondering about the impact of carelessly chosen words on the feelings of others.

Sometimes, although we try our best to say things clearly and carefully choose our words, they still end up hurting the feelings of people around. What more when words are carelessly spoken.

In our conviction that we are on the right track, we trample upon the sensitivities of others, at times, unintentionally and at others, knowingly, deliberately. Unkind words tumble out of our mouths. These are times we forget that there are two sides to a coin. Wisdom is to recognise these moments and agree to disagree.

It is difficult to admit it when this happens. Should the perpetrator apologize or simply dismiss the idea of apologizing as preposterous?

Never underestimate the power of words.
Say the word and heal/bridge the divide.


LIFE IS TOO SHORT!

Saturday, August 8, 2009

Love story meets viva la vida

Enjoy the music...




Just like Rhett Butler's unforgettable one-liner in Gone with the wind:

Frankly my dear, I don't give a damn

Love Story had it's famous line too:

'LOVE MEANS NEVER HAVING TO SAY YOU'RE SORRY'
(Anybody above forty would have said this line at least once in his/ her lifetime)
( Well I did, a couple of times actually....)


(extracted from Wiki)
QUOTE

Two lines from the film have entered popular culture:

What can you say about a twenty-five year old girl who died? That she was beautiful and brilliant. That she loved Mozart and Bach. The Beatles. And me.

The first line in the film, which summarizes the story.

Love means never having to say you're sorry.

Spoken twice in the film; once by Jennifer when Oliver is about to apologize to her for his anger. It is also spoken by Oliver to his father when his father says "I'm sorry" after hearing of Jennifer's death.

The quote made it to #13 onto the American Film Institute's AFI's 100 Years ... 100 Movie Quotes, a list of top movie quotes.

The 1972 comedy What's Up, Doc?, which stars O'Neal, mocks this trademark line. At the end of that film, when Barbra Streisand's character coos "Love means never having to say you're sorry" while batting her eyelashes, O'Neal's character responds with the line: "That's the dumbest thing I ever heard."

UNQUOTE


Huh? So much for my memory of georgeous Ryan O'Neal as Oliver Barrett the IV!

Thursday, August 6, 2009

The old house at Titi Siam 1

There was this old wooden house in Lorong Titi Siam. It stood on stilts and had long picture windows with stained glass. The windows were all around the front portion of the house, otherwise known as the living room. It was a typical Malay wooden house,painted with oil (cat minyak), the house elongated to the back evidencing additional rooms that were added as the family grew.

I grew up in that house, along with two teenaged aunties (Makcik and Chu), an uncle (Teh), an older cousin (Abg Mansor) and a pair of loving grandparents (Maktok and Tok Abah). Sometimes my younger brother would be there too when Tok Langgar who took care of him had some other place to go.

My earliest memories was the smell of the coffee beans being roasted, sounds of the occasional bickering among the siblings, smell of grandma's cooking and smell of her kain batik when she opens her wardrobe.

There was a lesung kaki/ hindik , a simple contraption of a leg pounder used to separate the paddy husks from rice grain. It was located on the ground below the living room. I could never understand why the two aunties found it tiresome, I enjoyed the thing tremendously going up and down, BOOM BOOM BOOM! (Teh was forever MIA from all household chores as he was the Kolej's star sepak takraw player and was always away somewhere. He was also busy keeping up to his reputation as the local romeo)


(That is not Teh, Abg Mansor or my younger brother. The hindik we had was much bigger and longer. It has long gone and the pic was kidnapped from the net)



(Here's how it looks close up. I would climb and sit astride the long wooden pole when someone was doing the pounding..feels like riding a horse!)

Grandma was the best cook in the world. Early mornings would find us tucking into her home made kuih. Some days it would be kuih cara made in her buah' ceghemai' brass mould, on other days lepat pisang, seri muka, kuih lapis and the list goes on. Any kuih she made, would all be divided up equally between us in small plates, so that nobody would have to protest of getting less than the other person.





(I salivate just looking at the pics, and my heart feels heavy with memories of maktok preparing all these for us)


Sometimes it would be nasi goreng; a tasteful fried rice kampong style, where she would finish up all the leftover from previous days dishes.

But her best breakfast treat would be roti canai, yes..home made roti canai. The crispiness of the outside hides very soft layers inside!

It was where my brother, a sister and I were born. A small river ran in front of the property. In those days it was wide and deep enough for a small sampan to pass, peddling fresh kepah (a type of shellfish) that taste great in a curry.





Living near a river, albeit a small one, had its own story. Those days, I recall that there was talk of hantu ayaq (Kedah dialect for Hantu Air or water Ghost). But that story would have to be continued.

For the meantime here are the faces etched lovingly and forever in my memory. Al Fatihah to my long gone grandparents, but never far from my heart.




(The year was circa 1963, seated from left my mum with younger brother on her lap, Tok Abah, yours truly with very little hair on her head, Mak tok, Abg Mansor, Chu.
Standing from left is makcik and Teh. We were sitting in a typical yester years pose in front of the house at Titi Siam)

Sunday, August 2, 2009

A TIMELY REMINDER TO SELF

News of sickness, especially sickness which carry the penalty of imminent death strikes to the core of your being.

Be it a stranger, more so of a loved one, your first reaction would be to deny the reality. Try as you may, to push it away, it just wouldn't budge.

But think of it...knowledge of sickness actually empowers you to draw strength from the well deep within. Somehow, time is such a luxury, every breath is a gift from GOD as it should be, and nothing...nothing you wouldn't give to bring back yesterday when you didn't know and it's all okay. But time, past will not return.

Al `Asr (Time) Surah 103

In the name of Allah, the Beneficent, the Merciful
Time is witness that, surely, mankind suffers loss,
except for those of faith,
Who do good, and become a model of truthful living,
and together practice patience and constancy.


All these may propel you forward..to become a solihin or push you to the brink of despair.

In Yusuf Ali's translation of the Holy Quran Al Baqarah (2:286)

On no soul doth God Place a burden greater than it can bear. It gets every good that it earns, and it suffers every ill that it earns. (Pray:) "Our Lord! Condemn us not if we forget or fall into error; our Lord! Lay not on us a burden Like that which Thou didst lay on those before us; Our Lord! Lay not on us a burden greater than we have strength to bear. Blot out our sins, and grant us forgiveness. Have mercy on us. Thou art our Protector; Help us against those who stand against faith."



HAVE FAITH...AND PRAY. WHILE THERE IS LIFE, THERE IS HOPE